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Sunday, March 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 00:23:57 GMT

Hm....I did not fully realize that there were still some people who read this....definetely my mistake. So yeah, since last update was about seven months ago I guess some I have some catching up to do.Since then I have:
-finished my college app's (woo-hoo, i'm sure that quite a few people were convinced that I wasn't going to)
-started a new semester in school and have found most of my classes (AP Stat, physics, civics & economics, and French III) to be quite boring. I definetly like french though.
-felt like a complete bum and am having a major bout of senioritis (which i now know is a true and fairly debilitating disease)
-forgotten how to spell
-not applied to many scholarships (seriously, way too much effort, i did maybe two or so and just gave up)
-found out that my parents basically just want me to go to unc
-turned 17, it wasn't that big of an event or that interesting. Although I did have an Academic Decathalon competition on that day and then went out to dinner w/ my family & Mei's family
-been making plans to start a jewelry business once i get a credit card and am in college

And that's about it...............I really want to go to college. B/c right now i feel like i'm not doing anything and anything i do is pointless and my classes are lamely easy. Except for Civics which is easy, but I still manage to have a B in so far. I am rather pathetic. And i don't know what we're being graded on and for what so I have no clue. And I hate civics. And economics. And government. And random political crap like that. I loved US history, but politics is just boing and horrible. ANd i have a B b/c i don't try. AT all. I just need to pull it up to an A b/c i like my happy unweighted GPA. My weighted isn't as nice, but that's okay.

I like gum. And Chinese candy is so much better than American candy.

And I like deviantart and I like jewelry making. And I like green ceramic dishes. That's what i'm going to buy in China this summer.

Does anyone know where the Cinderella Project is this year? The thing that gives away free prom dresses? Okay, yes, technically that's for improverished girls who can't afford them, but i don't want my parents paying $30302023932984028394028309 for a prom dress either. That would be a capital waste of money and should be illegal.

I want short size 3 double pointed knitting needles to make cool lace opera gloves. Okay, maybe not right now. After May and after I finish making my grandma her shawl, which won't be very decorative but will be rather large. Yes, indeed.

hm.....may is so far away. I can't believe they stuck chemistry and psychology on the same AP testing date. I'm going to die of fidgeting during the psychology one. I'm rather worried, i've never taken an afternoon AP test before. I think i'll pack my lunch. Eee, the AP US History one last year was so much fun b/c Jeff decided to go wander around the downtown antique shop for nothing. So that's when I found out that antique shop does not = thrift shop. Those antiques were soooooooooo expensive. But that will be another fun part of college, i get to go to thrift stores and good will and my mom can't tell me that the clothes are likely to be diseased. Although i will be sure to exercise discretion and not buy stupid stuff.

Argh, so i found out that i can't bake. Yeah. I do want to go work at Grand Asia market and learn to, however. OMG, random other note: Grand Asia market's jewelry stand place was definetely hiring last week. I don't know if they still need help or not, but i hope that they still have the spot avaliable for the next few weeks. I saw the sign last week, but I couldn't work up the nerve to go ask the lady. Those people are so intimidating. I'm pretty sure that was the lady at the International Festival this year and she was not very nice there. Not at all. She was definetely overly suspicious and a little rude. But it might be worth it if i could somehow be able to work there. If not, i'd like to work at the bakery this summer. Or i would babysit b/c babysitting makes a lot of money. And I need money for college.
Okay, I should go and do stuff. Bye peoples.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 20:05:42 GMT

oh, spent about 3.5 hrs yesterday night painting a pic. 1st acrylic painting ever, not counting that thing we had to do in art in 10th grade which I never finished.....

So anyways, yeah, my mom was all the woods are too dark. And I realized that after i did the bottom right part of the woods b/c i painted too many layers so the thingy wasn't light greenish anymore, but I have a wonder explaination for that. I blame hana-kimi. Yeah, that artist dude who did the sky as daytime and the rest as night time. Actually, I was thinking that when i was working on it. B/c i was walking home from the party at Victoria's house and I was looking at trees on the sky line.

The clouds were much fun to paint. I love cute little canvases. This one's 6x4 or something like that. So cute! ^_^ and pretty cheap too. came in a pack of 3, but i can't find one of them......

oh, more random self-spam. If you do these w/ .5 sec each pic, it gives you a major headache. More than they do now at 1 sec each. : P

I hate not being of age, i can't buy weapons online and i cant get an ebay account legally. Or under my name completely. Bugger.

On the bright side. I finished my research paper: 8 pages and a works cited page. All pure BS I spent only two mornings, 1/2 of a period, and a lunch on. Not so bright side: I didn't go an outline (too busy trying to write the paper at lunch the day it was due.....) and didn't highlight (b/c I didn't read the papers she gave use w/ directions on them and i didn't care at that point) So yeah, my brain was exhausted.

*sigh* my counselor says I have to finished my UNC app. by oct 15 o_O how the crap is that going to happen he's crazy yes. <---why I hated faulkner. GRRR, stupid man.

I made a bracelet. very simple but pretty. Too bad I made my own clasp/toggle too.

I'm happy. I found a cool new shirt. Out of the rag pile. But i don't care. I wore it yesterday night b/c i thought i might get paint on myself. And I didn't. Not one drop. What's the point of a paint smock/shirt if you don't get any paint on it. I was considering smearing some paint on it just for the hell of it, but then I decided to wear it to church. I like it. : D I feel like a sailor! Well, not really.......

senior year's a bore. Some classes are cool, but too much effort. Effort is not good. Grrr, my class rank better get better or else i'll kill someone. Stupid 10th grade. Only one 6 and a 5 out off all that horror of a year. Poot.

Eeeks, so many things due over a span of time. I've never really had that before. Chem we turn in out chapters' homework at the unit test, English we have reading journals and whatever else she feels like assigning, and math we have weekly packets, which are as hard as crap. And psychology......well, let's just say Mrs. Cheeks is a special and rather absent-minded old lady. *nods* she's great and all, but I have a feeling we aren't getting as much out of it as we could. But it's all good.

*yawn* I'm feeling sleep deprived all the time. I think i need to improve my vocab. While working on my research paper, I kept spelling words incorrectly. And not b/c I was having mad rushes of adrenaline and creativity, but b/c i really was just messing up and being befuddled about how to spell those words. I'd say i'm going to become manic-depressive, but that's just my hypochondria.

on the plus side, i made a tiramisu cake. Which.....doesn't make much of a difference in the scheme of things, but I don't care.

Monday, September 05, 2005

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 15:41:44 GMT

woah, new xanga new entry format thingy.......O_o *spazzes out*

hm, yeah, so my parents are gone (shopping) and so i'm going to rant on my xanga. ^_^

I got a phone call today. From Jacob asking if i wanted to go w/ whatever's left of the SE group to go watch movie. The weird pigeon one. I said no on general principle that my parents would say no way in hell but in none cursing terms. But we talked for a while, for once i did not torment him or even try to : P. And it was cool. B/c SE has so many cool ppl. *nods* Speaking of which, i think i should gripe and complain about how i have no friends at apex. But i won't. B/c i don't really care. Though i do miss having lunch w/ Kym-chan. My freshie won't respond dammit.!!!!! >_< stupid little ppl.

I don't feel like a senior. Although, i do fell more entitled to gripe about stupid freshmen. There's about 43049385904839508493083490 new ppl. Well, at least that many that i swear i've never seen before. That many new people should be illegal.

I've decided to pick colleges to appply to by just throwing crap out and applying to whichever ones i haven't thrown out. *nods* a foolproof plan.

I hate the 5 day school week. I hate structured schedules. It's so stupid. And i never accomplish anything on the weekends, although that might be more me than anything else. You know, i should be pleased about getting merit semifinalist, but that's just more crap for me to fill out. And i have to get a teacher recommendation. I hate those.

I like having conversations in my head. My room is such a mess. I have too many little things and i'm more anal about details than anything. Of course, maybe that'd just my lack of attention span. yeah, problably.

For some reason, i think i might want to be a vegetarian. No, wait, i don't. I just think that maybe we eat oo much meat. We do. *nods* Of course, i also decided that when i grow up i want to grow alfalfa on my lawn instead of grass. But that plan might be flawed. Somehow.....

I forgot what i was going to say.

I really don't even understand the national merit thing. My lovely confidence is telling me that i have no way in hell of getting to finalist. And then, the other part of me keeps pointing out that they're taking 8000 or so out of 16000 or so and i can't be stupid enough to be worse than half those people. Bleah, effort is overrated. I'd rather ruminate over my ap psych. paper. That at least interested me for a while. Ap chem. had better remain this easy. Or relatively so. Or else i'll really die. Math is math, and english might soon suck b/c we're going to start timed writings again. I like walking to the library after school.

I also like being occupied by menial tasks. Like removing grass embryos. That was fun. I had to so something visually and w/ my hands and then i had forever to think thoughts to myself.

Ap psych will be cool. I'm not sure if we'll ever learn enough to pass the ap test, but it's an okay class.

I liked being a junior better. In ap chem i realized that all the sophmores were now juniors. I pouted and demanded in my head that they give me my spot back.

We had an assembly. I sat w/ jeff and erika (yay!) and some person whose name i forget. I walked a small part of the way to school. Saw a bunch of ppl smoking cigarretts. >_< gross. But the person whose name i can't remember wasn't. She has partly purple hair.

I'm looking forward to second sememster. It'd better be great and require little effort on my part or else i'll be upset.

I like almonds. Water chestnuts are strange. Our school library still sucks. 1.5 out of 4 librarians at our school are insane. One of them is scary insane and she yells too much.

okay, off to think about pills.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 12:47:22 GMT

damn, why is everyone born in august? That's rather unfair...

b/c then ppls' bdays are all shoved together. *frown*

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 16:05:15 GMT

Wow, amazing and yet horrible thought at the same time. I spent 4 hours at the library on Sunday. Doing research for Ap psych. Well, attempting to. B/c i gave up halfway and read Shaman King 2 and then gave up again about 5 min later and read Shaman King 5. That day accomplished nothing for me as research in random topics you haven't learned about is pretty damn hard. I got about 7 books and i've read one of them. I think i'm bgoing to do what i always do, just make it up as i go along.......

So my school obviously wants to kill me. Horrible schedule. I think i'll sue. I don't like my guidance counselor either. He's a bore.

Hm, last week working here. YES!!!! ^_^ wootness. It's fun and all b/c i can just do stuff and wander on the random rabbit trails in my head, but i'm really looking forward to those three days before school starts.

Anyhows, I'm def. going to make my mom take me to Borders this Sat. B/c *cough* i need to *cough* research......Well, i do, but i just want to get some more Terry Pratchett books. Against all defiance of my miserliness, i really want to own them all. Well, okay, so i'm going to use *showers of happy glitter* my otouto-chan's wonderful present of a gift card (<- is that redundant?), but,.......i lost my train of thought.

I'd better get a good freshie. Or else i'll have to buy a choke collar. *sigh* I don't wanna be a senior. The effort and more effort shall simply overwhelm me.

Actually, i read 2 of the 7 books.But i don't think Girl, Interrupted counts as much. B/c it doesn't have much to do w/ pills.

How do cars that can take both ethanol and gasoline work?

Friday, August 12, 2005

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 14:40:45 GMT

omg, stupid freaking government! Argh, all those rules and whatnot. *shakes head* tried to go take my driver's permit test today. And i wasn't allowed to. B/c My SS card says Angela Qi Yang (don't know how my parents managed that............as it's not my legal name...) and everything else says Qi Yang. *sigh* stupid ppl who care. I was really mad about that. B/c it'll take fffffffffffffoooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrever and a day to get a new SS card. B/c i have no clue what that entails. X_x

in other news, i like listening to NPR and do not like being in the car w/ my mom. She keeps trying to talk to me and i keep trying to listen to the radio. >_< She's also been nagging me aobut being antisocial. Which i don't really care about. B/c i know i am and i don't mind one bit.

Neh, does anyone know how to make dough dolls? Or how to make the dough for them? I tried and it's not the right texture. <----yes, another half-brained scheme of mine. haha, at least i know how to do some of my random hobbies........other i get .12 way there and stop b/c i have no clue what i'm doing..... oh well. I can try if i bloody well want to. It's my time and i can decide how to waste it.

Summer reading update: FINISHED ALL AP ENGLISH!!!!! And only 6 more pages in ap psych. Need to go to library. OMG, teacher wants us to photocopy our resources. Does she not realize how much that costs? 10 cents each page eats me. Yes :P i am a pennypinching miser.

I WANT MY DRIVER'S PERMIT!!!!! stupid dmv

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 15:24:48 GMT

Fwuee! I'm gettin paid. $6.50 per hour. 8 hrs per day. 5 day's per week.....^_^

Yeah, and yesterday and today were okay. (it rhymes : P ) But the fact that i messed up the medium on monday is having too many not good reprecussions. I three out about 76 petri dishes.......I feel like such a waster of money and the supplier ppl said they had to increase the prices b/c the price of crude oil was going up or something......

Wait, i don't have to get a work permit do i? >_< effort.

I still have to call the stupid driver's ed guy. I'm only.....5 weeks behind on doing that.....................*whistles innocently* procrastinator? Me?

Argh, why do i have to buy a stupid psychiatry or w/e book if i don't even know if i'm going to have that class 1st semester?!?!?! I went to the library yesterday. And all of them were checked out. Ok, i know it's a public library and all, but i think that everyone should wait until i get my books. *nods* definitely, then the world would be a happier place. And i couldn't even decide what to read......I wanted to read historical ficiton but wake's reading lists suck. Chick lit is soooo overrated. And they still don't have trickster's queen by tamora pierce.

You know you're bored when you go on cnn.com. Well, at least i know i am.....but i did that monday anyways. News is rather depressing.

I don't think i can read Crime and Punishment. I read the back cover and it just gave the whole plot away. Stupid ppl.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 13:53:24 GMT

omg, yesterday was a horrible day for me and my brain.

In the morning, well,i was supposed to be working on my own project but the lady was not present, so i did my math summer hw. And i would like to congradulate my AP Calc teacher on making me absolutely despise math even before the school year starts. >_<

And then, in the afternoon, i was making medium and didn't read the amounts right. I put too much agar gel or powder or w/e in it all. Buggers.

And then, i went on a bike ride and had my cell phone in my right hand and my hand on the brake and the phone was caught up in the brake. So when i was going down a hill, i tried to brake but cracked my phone instead. : ( that makes me sad. My phone is ugly looking now.........

Yesh, Taming of the Shrew is terrible. I want to smack shakespeare now. That was my 1.5st time reading it. It was okay to read, if you ignore the fact that i kept nodding off every 3 min. or so (only b/c i soooooooooooooooooooooo freaking sleepy these days and i don't know why) but that was a terrible ending.

Speaking of which, Underwater light- i read ch. 21 and 22 and epilogue. Omg, that was horrible. The spy was stupid and everyone dies........... But then, it was h/d. Which is better than anything jkr has done w/ her books. *shudder* I bored today and went on harrypotter.com and looked at pics of the GoF movie. It looked.....okay. But they had too many pic's of ugly ppl.

*yawn* i'm so sleeeeeeeeeeepyyyyyyyyyyy

Monday, July 25, 2005

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 14:42:21 GMT

omg, SVSM was awesomE! ^_^

And i didn't puke/cry/laugh insanely/mutter to myself during my presentation! Which was very good b/c considering my attempt at it on wednesday, that would def. had to have been a minor miracle. Though *sparkle* what Raj said on Friday did help. Or was is thursday....? Dunno.

Feh, i'm back. And at my internship at NCSU on Monday. *shakes head* oh well. I did most of my Calc. Summer HW today. B/c the lady who i'm supposed to help ISN'T HERE. My seeds are growing well though. I think most of them didn't get contaminated. But the calluses are slimy. >_< Which is not good. And gross, not to mention. EEEEEEEEEEEeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

I so do not want to go back to school. I want to go straight to college. OR something. Or just not go to school ever. YAY! High school dropout!

Argh, i hate the heat. STupid weather. Get back from the beach, where it is stinking humid and hot. And then they have a stupid heatwave over central carolina. W/e.

How much do microscopes cost? A whole lot i bet. I dont' know what to do w/ my slides......

ARrghghghgh, i'm hungry. I'm used to eating (if you can call wagoner food completely edible) at this time.....*ponder* i think i will.

My AP psych. teacher is crazy weird. She is insane actually, and sadistic and psychotic. *nods* crazy freak. Terrible idea on my part, neh? How in the world can we write a stupid paper>? I didn't take the freaking class to learn stuff, i just wanted the 6. : ( oh, the effort that is in store.....I wish i knew how to drive. Dammit.

Hm, effort. Need more ATP to function, i think my brain has shut off. Ok, that's it, i'm eating lunch. Won't it be terribly ironic if i get 2nd lunch this semester? *pause* no, that'd be torture. Argh, i know i have ap Calc 1st semester and................i wonder what else..............................I hope Psych is 2nd semester. I don't want to do this crap.

Friday, July 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 01:53:54 GMT

today, for the first time in a whooooooooole long time (if ever), i laughed till my stomach hurt. ^_^ it was a good time.

might edit more later

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je suis un peu malheurese..........

b/c i have something in my eye and i can't find it or get it out

it irritates me, in the pain omg it itched like hell way

*grin* i think i'm getting weird mood swings again

i started a semi mural on my wall

i have three diff flowers, one which is absolutely beautiful b/c i think it will dry that shade of dark purple.

We went bowling wednesday. I played a game w/ my left hand. I got a 64, which isn't bad actually......I got a strike and three spares w/ my left hand....

i don't feel up to reading lj or my emails. I'm sorry world. I am incompetent.

neh, i spent too much money at walmart.