woah, new xanga new entry format thingy.......O_o *spazzes out*

hm, yeah, so my parents are gone (shopping) and so i'm going to rant on my xanga. ^_^

I got a phone call today. From Jacob asking if i wanted to go w/ whatever's left of the SE group to go  watch movie. The weird pigeon one. I said no on general principle that my parents would  say no  way in hell but in none cursing terms. But we talked for a while, for  once i did not torment him or even try to : P. And it was cool.  B/c SE has so many cool ppl. *nods* Speaking of which, i think i should gripe and complain about how i have no  friends at apex. But  i won't. B/c i don't really care. Though i do miss having lunch w/ Kym-chan. My freshie won't  respond dammit.!!!!! >_< stupid little ppl.

I don't  feel like a senior. Although, i do fell more entitled  to gripe about stupid freshmen. There's about 43049385904839508493083490 new ppl. Well, at least that many that i swear i've never seen  before. That many new people  should be illegal.

I've decided to pick colleges  to appply to by just  throwing crap out and applying to whichever ones i haven't thrown out. *nods* a foolproof plan.

I hate the 5 day school week. I hate structured schedules.  It's so stupid. And i never accomplish anything on the weekends, although that might be more me than anything  else. You know, i should be pleased  about getting merit semifinalist, but that's  just more crap for me to fill out. And i have to get a teacher recommendation. I hate those.

I like  having conversations in  my head. My room is such a mess. I have too  many little things and i'm more anal about details  than anything. Of course,  maybe that'd just my lack of attention span. yeah, problably.

For some reason, i think  i might want to be a vegetarian. No, wait, i don't. I just think  that  maybe we eat oo much meat. We do. *nods* Of course, i also decided that when i  grow up i want to grow alfalfa on my lawn instead of grass. But that plan might be flawed.  Somehow.....

I forgot what i was going to say.

I really don't even  understand  the national merit thing. My lovely confidence is telling me that i have no way in hell of  getting to finalist. And then, the other part of me keeps pointing out that they're taking 8000 or so out of 16000 or so and i can't be stupid enough to be worse than half those people. Bleah, effort is overrated. I'd rather ruminate over my ap psych. paper. That  at least interested me for a while. Ap chem. had better remain this easy. Or relatively so. Or else i'll really die. Math is math, and english might soon suck b/c we're going to start timed writings again. I like walking  to the library after school.

I also like being occupied by menial tasks. Like removing grass embryos. That  was fun. I had to so something visually and w/ my hands and then i had forever to think thoughts to myself.

Ap psych will be cool. I'm not sure if we'll ever  learn enough to  pass the ap test, but it's an okay class.

I liked being a junior better. In ap chem i realized that all the sophmores were now  juniors. I pouted and demanded in my head that they give me my spot back.

We had  an assembly. I sat w/ jeff and  erika (yay!) and some person whose name i forget. I walked a small part of the way to school. Saw  a bunch of ppl smoking cigarretts. >_< gross. But the person whose name i can't remember wasn't. She has partly purple hair.

I'm looking forward to second sememster. It'd better be great and require little effort on my part or else i'll be upset.

I like almonds. Water chestnuts are strange. Our school library still sucks. 1.5 out of 4 librarians at our school are insane. One of them is scary insane and she  yells too much.

okay, off to think about pills.