oh, spent about 3.5 hrs yesterday night painting a pic. 1st acrylic painting ever, not counting that thing we had to do in art in 10th grade which I never  finished.....

So anyways, yeah, my mom was all the woods are too dark. And I realized that after i did the bottom right part of the woods b/c i painted  too many layers so the thingy wasn't light greenish anymore, but I have a wonder explaination for that.  I blame hana-kimi. Yeah, that artist dude who did the sky as daytime and the rest as night time. Actually, I was thinking that when i was working on it. B/c i was walking home from the party at Victoria's house and I was looking at trees on the sky line.

The clouds were much fun to paint. I love cute little canvases. This one's 6x4 or something like that. So cute! ^_^ and pretty cheap too. came in a pack of 3, but i can't find one of them......

oh, more random self-spam. If you do these w/ .5 sec each pic, it  gives you a major headache. More than they do now at 1 sec each. : P

I hate not being of age, i can't buy weapons online and i cant get an ebay account legally. Or under my name  completely. Bugger.

On the bright side. I finished my research paper: 8 pages and a works cited page. All pure BS I spent only two mornings, 1/2 of a period, and a lunch on. Not so bright side: I didn't go an outline (too busy trying to write the paper at lunch the day it was due.....) and didn't highlight (b/c I didn't read the papers she gave use w/ directions on them and i didn't care at that point) So yeah, my brain was exhausted.

*sigh* my counselor says I have to finished my UNC app. by oct 15 o_O how the crap is that going to happen he's crazy yes. <---why I hated faulkner. GRRR, stupid man.

I made a bracelet. very simple but pretty. Too  bad I made my own clasp/toggle too. 

I'm happy. I found a cool new shirt. Out of the rag pile. But i don't care. I wore it yesterday night b/c i thought i might get paint on myself. And I didn't. Not one drop. What's the point of a paint smock/shirt if you don't get any paint on it. I was considering smearing some paint on it just for the hell of it, but then I decided to wear it to church. I like it. : D I feel like a sailor! Well, not really.......

senior year's a bore. Some classes are cool, but too much effort. Effort is not good. Grrr, my class rank better get better or else i'll kill someone. Stupid 10th grade. Only one 6 and a 5 out off all that horror of a year. Poot.

Eeeks, so many things due over a span of time. I've never really had that before. Chem we turn in out chapters'  homework at the unit test, English we have reading journals and whatever else she feels like assigning, and math we have weekly packets, which are as hard as crap. And psychology......well, let's just say Mrs. Cheeks is a special and rather absent-minded old lady. *nods* she's great and all, but I have a feeling we aren't getting as much out of it as we could. But it's all good.

*yawn* I'm feeling sleep deprived all the time. I think i need to improve my vocab.  While working on my research paper, I kept spelling words incorrectly. And not b/c I was having mad rushes of adrenaline and creativity, but b/c i really was just messing up and being befuddled about how to spell those words. I'd say i'm going to become manic-depressive, but that's just my hypochondria.

on the plus side, i made a tiramisu cake. Which.....doesn't make much of a difference in the scheme of things, but I don't care.

woah, new xanga new entry format thingy.......O_o *spazzes out*

hm, yeah, so my parents are gone (shopping) and so i'm going to rant on my xanga. ^_^

I got a phone call today. From Jacob asking if i wanted to go w/ whatever's left of the SE group to go  watch movie. The weird pigeon one. I said no on general principle that my parents would  say no  way in hell but in none cursing terms. But we talked for a while, for  once i did not torment him or even try to : P. And it was cool.  B/c SE has so many cool ppl. *nods* Speaking of which, i think i should gripe and complain about how i have no  friends at apex. But  i won't. B/c i don't really care. Though i do miss having lunch w/ Kym-chan. My freshie won't  respond dammit.!!!!! >_< stupid little ppl.

I don't  feel like a senior. Although, i do fell more entitled  to gripe about stupid freshmen. There's about 43049385904839508493083490 new ppl. Well, at least that many that i swear i've never seen  before. That many new people  should be illegal.

I've decided to pick colleges  to appply to by just  throwing crap out and applying to whichever ones i haven't thrown out. *nods* a foolproof plan.

I hate the 5 day school week. I hate structured schedules.  It's so stupid. And i never accomplish anything on the weekends, although that might be more me than anything  else. You know, i should be pleased  about getting merit semifinalist, but that's  just more crap for me to fill out. And i have to get a teacher recommendation. I hate those.

I like  having conversations in  my head. My room is such a mess. I have too  many little things and i'm more anal about details  than anything. Of course,  maybe that'd just my lack of attention span. yeah, problably.

For some reason, i think  i might want to be a vegetarian. No, wait, i don't. I just think  that  maybe we eat oo much meat. We do. *nods* Of course, i also decided that when i  grow up i want to grow alfalfa on my lawn instead of grass. But that plan might be flawed.  Somehow.....

I forgot what i was going to say.

I really don't even  understand  the national merit thing. My lovely confidence is telling me that i have no way in hell of  getting to finalist. And then, the other part of me keeps pointing out that they're taking 8000 or so out of 16000 or so and i can't be stupid enough to be worse than half those people. Bleah, effort is overrated. I'd rather ruminate over my ap psych. paper. That  at least interested me for a while. Ap chem. had better remain this easy. Or relatively so. Or else i'll really die. Math is math, and english might soon suck b/c we're going to start timed writings again. I like walking  to the library after school.

I also like being occupied by menial tasks. Like removing grass embryos. That  was fun. I had to so something visually and w/ my hands and then i had forever to think thoughts to myself.

Ap psych will be cool. I'm not sure if we'll ever  learn enough to  pass the ap test, but it's an okay class.

I liked being a junior better. In ap chem i realized that all the sophmores were now  juniors. I pouted and demanded in my head that they give me my spot back.

We had  an assembly. I sat w/ jeff and  erika (yay!) and some person whose name i forget. I walked a small part of the way to school. Saw  a bunch of ppl smoking cigarretts. >_< gross. But the person whose name i can't remember wasn't. She has partly purple hair.

I'm looking forward to second sememster. It'd better be great and require little effort on my part or else i'll be upset.

I like almonds. Water chestnuts are strange. Our school library still sucks. 1.5 out of 4 librarians at our school are insane. One of them is scary insane and she  yells too much.

okay, off to think about pills.

damn, why is everyone born in august? That's rather unfair...

b/c then ppls' bdays are all shoved together. *frown*

Wow, amazing and yet horrible thought at the same time. I spent 4 hours at the library on Sunday. Doing research for Ap psych. Well, attempting to. B/c i gave up halfway and read Shaman King 2 and then gave up again about 5 min later and read Shaman King 5. That day accomplished nothing for me as research in random topics you haven't learned about is pretty damn hard. I got about 7 books and i've read one of them. I think i'm bgoing to do what i always do, just make it up as i go along.......

So my school obviously wants to kill me. Horrible schedule. I think i'll sue. I don't like my guidance counselor either. He's a bore.

Hm, last week working here. YES!!!! ^_^ wootness. It's fun and all b/c i can just do stuff and wander on the random rabbit trails in my head, but i'm really looking forward to those three days before school starts.

Anyhows, I'm def. going to make my mom take me to Borders this Sat. B/c *cough* i need to *cough* research......Well, i do, but i just want to get some more Terry Pratchett books. Against all defiance of my miserliness, i really want to own them all. Well, okay, so i'm going to use *showers of happy glitter* my otouto-chan's wonderful present of a gift card (<- is that redundant?), but,.......i lost my train of thought.

I'd better get a good freshie. Or else i'll have to buy a choke collar. *sigh* I don't wanna be a senior. The effort and more effort shall simply overwhelm me.

Actually, i read 2 of the 7 books.But i don't think Girl, Interrupted counts as much. B/c it doesn't have much to do w/ pills.

How do cars that can take both ethanol and gasoline work?